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04 March, 2012

Dear Girl nursing a Broken Heart


Dear Girl nursing a broken heart,

“Sometimes you just have to erase the messages, delete the numbers and move on. You don’t have to forget who that person was to you; only accept that they aren’t that person anymore.”

You know world over, genders alike, there is one disease that is slyly killing vulnerable souls even of the strongest of exteriors-heart breaks. The higher brains need to develop some vaccinations or immunity from heartaches instead of spending time, resources and intelligence on things like bacteria and atoms. Meh! The world is equipped to handle itself-we collapse miserably when it comes to managing the inner void, desires and unrequited love.

Everyone may smugly think they are above it-no sir, you are not and definitely not you ma’am. You mistake tumbling for love and you've just not fallen still how you should. We all are likely to get enslaved, with or without our knowledge or permission. The higher you fall in fantasy of someone, the lower you sink in depths of despair after having lost him or her. Love in the extremes is really what and how love should be and hence the most difficult to bear by your insides whichever side the see-saw dips. Even when at its brightest and most passionate, it burns you yet with restlessness!

It is not the moving on part which is difficult-it is the fact that you keep turning back to see if there are any remnants of what you sowed or has the harvest been burnt beyond recognition. You can close your eyes to the things you don’t want to see but how does one close the heart to stop it from feeling what you don’t want to? Yes, it is that tough and you are not alone my pretty one in feeling thus.

It is sad when the people you know become the people you knew. It is not so impossible to comprehend the bafflement of how you spend hours with someone discussing life as though he was a fabric of it and suddenly he gets covered in a veil that you find difficult to pierce through or reach out to, however you squint your eyes and fuck your brains for it. With every deep breath you take to puff yourself up with courage, you know something inside always crumbles. You wait for him to realize what he gave up on and repent while the wait slowly withers you within.

Love is like that-sweetest when it is lifting you up and cruellest when it throws you with a thud. You wish he chokes on the words when he says “I love you” to another girl. What makes you most generous, can very well turn you most heartless-for it robs you of all emotions. And when someone leaves without a reason, it becomes a sore point and pull for life, a point of no return.

People say that the most painful thing in love is losing someone whom you loved; not really-the painful part begins when you realize that you lost yourself in the process. The ache culminates into anger, frustration, regret and hopelessness borne out of the doubt and that tormenting, looming question-why did you allow yourself and your happiness to be dependent on one person?

Love stories that do not wrap up in a “happily ever after” are the strongest. It is perhaps because they leave us with many ‘what-ifs’ that you turn and toss over despite being on the most comfortable of beds that life may offer. We crave to hear the truth...Was that the truth when you said you loved me as if there was no other human filling up the earth or is this the truth when you choose to look through me like I am unwanted or non-existent?

Girl, do you hear Beyonce play in the backdrop while I talk to you? “You are the only one I wish I could forget and the only one I love to not forgive. You’re everything I thought you never were and nothing like I thought you could have been....” Beyonce is a wise girl. Love can make or break, give or take, mourn and elate. Such an oxymoron!

So now that you are ruined, how do you help you? Talking does the trick-not to someone else per se but to yourself. The brain may be the smartest of all organs but silliest when it comes to being convinced and especially of an argument born in itself. Cry a river-build a bridge-get over it. Tears perhaps were watery by default for a reason-they cleanse as they drain. Don't fight them, don't resist the closure for therein might lie the key. Let him know how you feel now-for if he wanted to hear how you felt when he tingled your body with mere words, he ought to know how he makes it shudder too.

You have to remind yourself that he may continue to live in your heart but there was no way, he could have lived in your life. And until you are broken, you don’t know what you are made of. Collect the pieces and start as a whole again. Try not to remember half the things you will never forget.  The best way to ensure you don’t go treading back on his path again, is to erase the footprints you walked along with and uproot the milestones that lure you to digress again.

It is often seen that people jump into one relationship from another. It is not because they are fickle-it is the best way to nurse the wound of the organ which was meant to just pump blood but does everything unspecified instead. A new muse for the broken heart is as necessary as new strings for a guitar that loses its rhythm. It helps you to not keep running back to the one person you need to walk away from. 

So keep the mind alert and heart open to allow the one who suits your fancy again but be patient for comparisons would set in and it would be a while before you find someone interesting again. But then you will-that’s how we are conceptualized. You tend to find things that attract you and the things that attract you tend to somehow reach to you.

Also vomit the anger and pain on someone who is ready to take that shit from you-there always is. Be proud of every blow made at your heart for it left you with lessons that made you stronger and wiser for future. And remember you can never make the same mistake twice, the next time it will show a choice. You can never be “just good friends” with someone you loved once-the feelings fade with time or injury, but they never die if they truly lived when they did. So don’t look to be friends, accept the anonymity.

Realize that what is dead must be buried before it deforms to something ghastly. Realize that you can live without him-his first mistake was leaving you and then now, allowing you to bring to fruition that you can live without him. The very people who said they would never hurt you are the very those who take your heart to task. Guard yourself and your self respect. Don’t dismiss it in the name of pride-respect it in the name of your individuality. Anything that does not make us happy has no right to live even in the periphery of our existence.

It will hurt for a first few weeks, maybe even months but then life moves on, love learns to unlearn and heart aspires to mend and fend for itself again.

I know dear girl, it seems the end of the world for you fear you won’t find anyone this perfect again. His perfection was an illusion-a pedestal where YOU raised him to for nobody is perfect and that’s what he should become-a nobody. Learn to unlearn, grieve to rejoice, rise again to stamp down-chin up and smile to scare the doubts away and drag yourself out of the bottomless pit. There are many who deserve you in all your glory so gather it before you lose the sunshine.

And then keep the faith-Love does not hurt, lovers do.

Take care and heal fast,
Yours lovingly,
Been there, seen that.

30 comments:

CD!!! said...

Walking alone is not difficult. But walking alone, after travelling most of the journey with someone, it becomes difficult. Yes, love does not hurt. Lovers do. But is the heart ready to accept things after it has been damaged.

You have answered most of the questions through this letter :)

Wicked Witch of the West said...

Just...wonderful post! Have no words! But...wonderful!

Manu Varghese said...

Finely said. Nice thoughts. :)

Bikramjit said...

WHERE were you a few years back, WHY did you not meet me and give me all this advice THEN.

moving on , how does one do that, what if the people who you want ot talk to are the same people who kept telling you that this person is not for you, that this person is a COnniving ____, that this person is the worst think to happen to you and you did not listen to them and forced them to accept .. HOW can you go to talk to them now..


this one made me sad SO SADddd brought some memories that have again bruised the dry bruises ..

Jinhan di fitrat ch dagaa
oh kade wafawaan nahin karde
jo rukh zayaada uche ne
oh kade chavaan nahin karde

Bikram's

Behind those veils said...

Thanks a LOT suruchi..really need this!!!

Its to move on..well said..I have to agree with all your points there..

pygmalion said...

Suru... this adds to my courage.. No one can pen all this better than how u did. Each word has so much of depth in it, that it is like an arrow pulled out of the wound..
Will heal..
All you have said is the truth at its peak.. Hugs dear

pygmalion said...

Suru... this adds to my courage.. No one can pen all this better than how u did. Each word has so much of depth in it, that it is like an arrow pulled out of the wound..
Will heal..
All you have said is the truth at its peak.. Hugs dear

susheel said...

such a very nice thoughts...u are a good writer of ur life...


...love is not painful...but our thought make it painfull...
..
living in same situation is not possible in life...
so no pain will still for so long...
...........

Gargi Gupta said...

Amazing post! Loved every single word and needless to say, related well. Sharing it, you never know, there are many who might need it right away :)

Dr Roshan R said...

one of your best posts.. and thats high praise, cause you've written plenty of awesome ones in the past.

Vagabond said...

What if each and every time you fall for someone / there is a hint of mush, it is fated to be unrequited? What then?

What if the heart never mends and the blood clots and you become cynical and paranoid and crazy and so sarcastic /rude that you are touted to be made of stone and you believe that and then you are thrown away and it is only then that you realise that you were actually made of the thinnest of glass.

How many times is it ok to tape yourself up?

This is one time when I wanted your post to be longer. Keep talking will ya?

Ameena said...

You are just an amazing writer! Really, a lovely post. CD (commenter above) said everything I was thinking).

Hope you are having a great weekend!

Jack said...

Suruchi,

A very realistic post with very sane advice.

No offence was meant in my comment in previous post. All I meant was that they let you both be yourselves.

Take care

Rachit said...

artistically penned..


Weakest LINK

R-A-J said...

Wow, loved a few lines which I thought were very beautiful.. like "Sometimes you just have to erase the messages, delete the numbers and move on" ...

lovely post, Suruchi.. truly from someone who breathes love :)

CATGIRL !! said...

Suruchi
i trully truly loved. have no words hwo correctly it was written as i m freshly moving into thsi phase..yeah just a a week has gone by...n m trying hard to heal. u made my day !!
love
Catgirl

Bharathi said...

A wonderful post awesomely penned , may be the right one for me at this point of time, loved each line and felt it applies to me...

Dream On.. said...

They say hurting you is the last thing i will do..but then its still on the list isnt it...

nice post Suruchi..i think most of us can relate to what you have said..when i look back i always remember the lines from Break ke baad song

'Kaanch ka Saman the aur girr gaye hum, jodd ke khud ko banane phir chale hum'..it takes time, sometimes weeks, sometimes months and sometimes even years but u have to do it. There is no other option..is there?

Jenny said...

ohhh mi god! I wish someone had written this to me, when I was 16 and 23!

The entire post is filled with lines which hit you with reality and bring out the goosebumps, but these were my fav lines.

'It is sad when the people you know become the people you knew.'

'the painful part begins when you realize that you lost yourself in the process'

'Cry a river-build a bridge-get over it. Tears perhaps were watery by default for a reason-they cleanse as they drain'

'Love does not hurt, lovers do'

Its so true, that love makes you such a harsh person, when you dont get it in return.
and to get out of one, you have to get into another one..!

Suruchi, This is your best post for me. I am sharing it with a lot of my friends! Hats off to you!! Total admiration!

Chaitanya said...

Loved the last para of post .. Nice post and thanks for writting down inspirations to all ..

Alka Gurha said...

This is a must read for all the damsels nursing a broken heart...so warm and so reassuring.

RiĆ  said...

Much needed help for many ppl I suppose...beautifully written dear! :)

nil said...

"His perfection was an illusion-a pedestal where YOU raised him to for nobody is perfect and that’s what he should become-a nobody."-- oh my god, this gave me the chills cause sadly that was the FIRST thing I realized when I had the 'very first broken heart' of teenage.. :)

Sigh. This piece had SO many lines I wanted to quote and keep quoting, this couldn't be written any better! Thanks Suruchi, for this. Very often girls my age like to buckle up and walk them heels without showing an inch of sadness, but they dwell within us alright. So after a while, when we're finally 'over it' and we read something like this, we realize we were on the right path :)

much much love to you :)

Red Handed said...

"You have to remind yourself that he may continue to live in your heart but there was no way, he could have lived in your life."

BURNT MY HEART!!
That was some postt suru!!

Kajal said...

so beautiful.. all those who are hurting and not hurting will be able to relate to this one. Loved it. Wish I had read this when I was in collage!

Glad to have found you at Indiblogger. Your newest follower and regular visitor now.
Cheers
Kajal

TheGirlAtFirstAvenue said...

I am tempted to say I wish I had read something like this ten years back.. but being the eternal optimist that I am, i'll just say I am glad I read it at least now! ;)

This brought back a lot of memories.. painful, sad, happy, funny, frustrating.. I am quite surprised and happy that it hasn't brought back any 'regrets'.

If I had to quote my favorite lines, i'd quote the entire post. Its surreal how one single post by someone you've never met can become so close to your heart. I think i'll cherish these lines forever.

♥ www.thegirlatfirstavenue.com

-*-Poonam-*- said...

OMG :(:(

-*-Poonam-*- said...

OMG :(:(

Ashwin D said...

Wonderfully expressed each and every emotion of how a girl would feel when heart broken. Amazingly written. Keep up! :)

Soham Malakar said...

I am happy to see that I am not alone in the world of grief, disrespect and pain. Your words truly reflects that you have been there like me.

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